I wrote this song about a toxic relationship I was in for far too long. I hope that this song will help others believe in themselves and realize that it is never a good thing to lose one’s self-worth to another person.
Kelsie Kimberlin – The Drawer (official song release)
Our eyes locked together as we walked down the hall
The spark started then but I didn’t know it was all in my
Head at the time, the fire wouldn’t light for another long four years.
We both went through our own hells and barely made it back
With the drugs and the losses we were lucky to wake up from the
Pain, it was there deep inside, never left even though we always tried.
I was scrapping at the bottom, you were searching through your phone
The text came in at midnight when I was sitting all alone, saw your name
Wondered who, then remembered that it was you
The next day you came over, but my dad wouldn’t let you in
So we sat out on the front porch and we watched the freezing rain
You were perfect gentle I was messed up but there was something
The days and nights were heaven I was finally alive, you said you
loved my skinny body even though I almost died I couldn’t eat
or wouldn’t eat till I met you, till I finally met you
Then I started getting healthy, and putting on some weight
but you wanted to control everything I ate
I was so confused, and abused you left me so, insecure.
You said I was not the person that you thought
or why you are with me and you made me cry a lot, so you left
me alone, no more texts on the phone, all alone.
You said that you loved my beauty, but that it would someday fade
so you walked out the door while throwing so much shade
You didn’t cry, I know why, cause you never loved yourself
But I found something inside me that was hidden in a vault,
I had to love myself it was not my fault,
Picked the lock, found the truth, Yeah, I finally found the truth.
Now I look into the mirror I love everything I see,
You are all alone and not living here with me
You have lost, I have gained even though I felt so much pain, so much fucking pain
No I didn’t want to kill you or all the other guys, I just wanted to be loved
for what I hid inside, now I’m free, and it’s me without you forever me
Wondered who, it was me, wondered who, it was me, it was never you.
It was always me, it was never you, it was always me
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